Math homework sucks

Wow today math is suckish and she has us doing Probability vs. Odds. Its not hard to understand its just super suckish and i hate it. Math is my worst subject besides government and science. I hate all 3 subjects really but its whatever.

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Headache kills

Grrr i have such a Headache its so ridiculous and like it hurts badly and my back is in severe pain. All i wanna do is curl up in a ball and sleep. Also i am not holding heat and chest is sensitive and no im not prego. I just practice for show choir alot and also my throat hurts when i swallow and my ears hurt so bad. I cant miss the competition next saturday. Idk i just dont feel well in general

Ready or not i'm coming

So next saturday is my show choir competition. I am ready to bring it and i am so excited. I mean my best friends are competing with me so i know everything will be ok no matter. Josh as far as i know has to work but he is trying to get it off so he can watch me perform. I hear its going to be along bus ride from where i am to Quincy and sorry i didnt blog last night i was extremely tired. Now its time for me to get my body a little more ready and become a little more fab. I am so excited and maybe i will get some reading and pics on the bus. I shall keep you posted

You cant escape

You cant escape me...I'll never fade gray. I linger in your thoughts and I thrive off your pain. You try to forget me and you wonder my name. I'm unexplainably there. I'll never go away I'm even in your most secret hiding place the shadows where you cant see my face. I'm not one you can escape not even in your dreams or the silent screams of insanity that cross your mind. If i could though....I'd rewind time.

Wish we never met

I used to believe that once up a time my dad would be a dad and that everything would be ok once we talked and met laughed a little but i was wrong...anymore i wish we never had met. I know he has my eyes and parts of my face now but he is too cold hearted to be my father. I'm just glad i got it over with and i am in like major pain right now and my hands are ice cold...I'm not fond of the feeling. I wish my body would go numb to the point where it didn't feel cold or heat or pain as i wait for Josh to come take me home. Ive been in his car for almost 2 hours huddled under his hoodie for warmth but it hasn't done much but it has helped a little. Now the cold has hit my upper body floodingly fast to the point my chest hurts. I am not sure who to trust anymore but i know now that i have to watch every where i turn as i have learned trust no one and suspect everyone. It's seemed to turn into a
normal code of conduct as i know even my own family has turned to betray me and i loathe them for that

Lets get ready

Wow its 3 and a half weeks till we go to our show choir competition in Quincy. I am so ready for it. I am also so excited that we get to perform after all the practice and time we put into it. I am way excited and ready to go. I'm so tired though anyways i am going to go my ear hurts like hell and i just got over being sick

Going out tonight

Well I'm having a night on the town and picking the perfect outfit and doing my make-up can be a bitch same with doing my hair. I love trying to look amazing and i may try and snap a few pic. Now all i need to do is find a teasing comb and i shall be perfect. At the moment i am watching miss congeniality its a great movie. Its actually one of my favorites. Anyways after i eat a grilled cheese while i am getting ready i am going to have a glass of water. cant wait

Depressed

Wow i can't even get a little time with my man anymore. He is being a jerk right now. He got rude with me just because i didn't answer my phone while me and his mom where out shopping for things we needed and also because he needed gas when he told us to take his check book for somethings he needed. He is getting to be insensitive. At times i wonder if he really wants me. I know his mom loves having me around. I'm still pretty sick and it sucks. Ive used my inhaler today. I don't know we don't even sleep in the same bed anymore so i am feeling totally neglected and i can't tell him that without him snapping on me. I guess I'm gonna go

Went to the doctors

Well i went to the doc's and apparently i have a viral infection in my lungs, throat, stomach. It sucks cause i cant go to school and i have now missed two show choir practices so now i have to work hard to catch up. Its whatever though. Hopefully i will be up and better in no time and when i am I'm going to give it all i got and then some.

Cuddling with my dog (dillan)

Omg i love cuddling with Dilan. He is the cutest pit bull ever. I love him. He is such a cuddle dog. My back hurts though i hate it. I feel so adhd right now and my head is stuffed. I am going insane. oh well. I'm sore
.

Hella sick

I hate the fact that i am so sick that they won't allow me to go to school till Thursday. Its no fun. I have a doctors appointment then. its terrible and these headaches suck. Also if there is a way that you can make it easier to breathe and take a way pressure i would be so happy. I am not supposed to get cold and believe me I'm so roasty and i hate it

From 'punk' to well ...punk

Wow i never thought id say this but one of my friends who changed his style to punk also seems to have turned his personality to complete punk. I hate the change so much. It kind of bothers me that he's changed so much. I used to have so much respect for him now i dont know what to think.

Grrrr

I hate being sick, I am not sure what I ended up with but it kills.
The symptoms are:
Burning Throat
Splitting headache
Voice going in and out
stuffed head
Coughing
Sore body
Fever
Clogged sinuses and nasal cavity

It is terrible. I only hope I get better soon. It is a pain but at least I am doing my best to do what I can to get better.

Looking Through

I'm looking through the mirror and
It's getting clearer
I'm not the girl I used to be.
I mean look at me
I live so independently 
Rise and fall as I walk alone
I'm never gonna crawl.
I don't know who my friends are
but I'm gonna stand tall.
They can't get me down
as long as I'm around.
Love disguised as hate
shall soon dissipate.
I feel the hands of fate
wrap itself around me
I'm not gonna let all the
hurt drown me out
That'd be a waste of time
I'm not gonna scream and
Shout.
I'm gonna Live out loud