Stuck

Right now i have so much on my mind and i am trying to sort everything out. Its all so crazy lately and next week i have show choir competition as in saturday and so we have to work seriously hard to keep going. My throat hurts and i have like 2 test today and math is like super hard for math. Just to get me through today im going to have to chug down a redbull. Im exhausted. It kills being in high school no joke. Anyways i gotta get going

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Math homework sucks

Wow today math is suckish and she has us doing Probability vs. Odds. Its not hard to understand its just super suckish and i hate it. Math is my worst subject besides government and science. I hate all 3 subjects really but its whatever.

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Headache kills

Grrr i have such a Headache its so ridiculous and like it hurts badly and my back is in severe pain. All i wanna do is curl up in a ball and sleep. Also i am not holding heat and chest is sensitive and no im not prego. I just practice for show choir alot and also my throat hurts when i swallow and my ears hurt so bad. I cant miss the competition next saturday. Idk i just dont feel well in general

Ready or not i'm coming

So next saturday is my show choir competition. I am ready to bring it and i am so excited. I mean my best friends are competing with me so i know everything will be ok no matter. Josh as far as i know has to work but he is trying to get it off so he can watch me perform. I hear its going to be along bus ride from where i am to Quincy and sorry i didnt blog last night i was extremely tired. Now its time for me to get my body a little more ready and become a little more fab. I am so excited and maybe i will get some reading and pics on the bus. I shall keep you posted

You cant escape

You cant escape me...I'll never fade gray. I linger in your thoughts and I thrive off your pain. You try to forget me and you wonder my name. I'm unexplainably there. I'll never go away I'm even in your most secret hiding place the shadows where you cant see my face. I'm not one you can escape not even in your dreams or the silent screams of insanity that cross your mind. If i could though....I'd rewind time.

Wish we never met

I used to believe that once up a time my dad would be a dad and that everything would be ok once we talked and met laughed a little but i was wrong...anymore i wish we never had met. I know he has my eyes and parts of my face now but he is too cold hearted to be my father. I'm just glad i got it over with and i am in like major pain right now and my hands are ice cold...I'm not fond of the feeling. I wish my body would go numb to the point where it didn't feel cold or heat or pain as i wait for Josh to come take me home. Ive been in his car for almost 2 hours huddled under his hoodie for warmth but it hasn't done much but it has helped a little. Now the cold has hit my upper body floodingly fast to the point my chest hurts. I am not sure who to trust anymore but i know now that i have to watch every where i turn as i have learned trust no one and suspect everyone. It's seemed to turn into a
normal code of conduct as i know even my own family has turned to betray me and i loathe them for that

Lets get ready

Wow its 3 and a half weeks till we go to our show choir competition in Quincy. I am so ready for it. I am also so excited that we get to perform after all the practice and time we put into it. I am way excited and ready to go. I'm so tired though anyways i am going to go my ear hurts like hell and i just got over being sick